Hidee-Hidee-Ho! I pray all is well with you sweet women and your families! This is just a quick little "Hodge-Podge" to catch up on randomness, then I will follow up with more substance! God Lord willin' and the creek don't rise!
Early last week (or was it the week before? I lose track of time now days, anyone else with me here?) the Lord raised up a somewhat dusty and crumb covered dream before my eyes and my husband's, and we have both decided to pursue it, for the pure joy of the pursuit of a God given dream. Both well aware that the pursuing of the dream is as much the point, as the dream itself. God is so good!
Some background - back in the summer of 2007, I was inspired to start writing an inspirational book based on certain aspects in the lives of Hannah and Deborah in the Old Testament, which signal out to us through the ages about the life of a woman as a tool of God to influence and administer her God given authority, for the good of those given to her care. I was on a "roll" while I worked on the first half. When I got to the second half, it got to the actual "work" (about August 2007). So, I got "distracted", and before you know it, by the middle of September 2007, I had started a blog! Yeah, not much time, what with life, home schooling, did I mention life, and then DIAL-UP! Not much time to write now! :)
Anywho, God who is merciful and longsuffering, brought the dream back to both me, then my husband within a 12 hour period, and this time we both pray that we will be faithful to stay the course! Come what may!
Note the flying bug picture above! Well, last week, as I "pushed past" a writing block, and committed to write five pages one night, and while meeting that goal, the juices were flowing and I could see the second half taking shape, and began to understand a great purpose had been served in the delay (God Works ALL things to the good of those who love Him and are called according to His purpose! {even their mistakes when yielded to His grand care! - Maria's paraphrase!}). As I sat in the loveseat recliner working on my laptop, while my husband toodled back and forth from the house to the "man shop" in the back yard, as he worked on a little "fix it" project, a lovely little treasure from the rural south flew in under the irresistable bait of the back porch light, apparently heading straight for the next shining mecca of light, the lamp shining down on my gleaming, (yet frazzled) hair.
Around here we call them potato bugs. What I found in Photobucket under that title was NOT the thing we speak of. These things are dark brown and hard shelled. They look like the dreaded roach, (eeewww!) but, they are not the same. Like I said hard shelled and LOVE the light, and beat themselves silly on the light they can find.
Needless to say, I have not outgrown my girlish frenzy to run from a bug on my person, especially when said bug is in my hair, then in my LAP! As I vaulted from recliner, dumping sweet laptop on the ground, emitting sounds which surely energized the blood flow of the men folk in the house, (and possibly putting the fear into any other potential light seeking potato bugs in the yard!)
Laptop was D.E.A.D. Breakthrough in writer's block - Gone? Say it ain't so!
OK! It ain't so! My brothers are both computer geniuses (I do not exaggerate! Just ask my Mom!! No, seriously they both are HIGHLY skilled and intuitive geeks who probably wish that gene had gotten evenly distributed in our family!) One of my brothers retreived ALL data off the laptop and has already emailed me my precious document! Yippeee!
Thank you, Bro!
At moments I may have felt a little like this! But not for long! :)
In the midst of all this has been the stubborn remnants of some financial challenges. And I just have to say that God has showed up, SHINED, strengthened and refined my faith, and is leading us into victory after victory, step after step. Is it challenging? Yes. Have I been tempted to succumb to dread, hopelessness, a sense of being overwhelemed? At times, all of those things. There were moments where I just wanted to be alone with God and wrestle like Jacob, and yet the moment escaped me, yet I knew that I had my victory, If I just wouldn't let go, If I didn't and if I won't - let go of My Word, My Jesus. When tempted to succomb, each time I would remind myself His Word is dynamic and at work in my life. Circumstances are subject to change. His Word is subject to no one.
Sorry for all the pictures! I just loved all of them! So I indulged a little! :) I would be so grateful for any prayers on behalf of my writing and publishing this book. We have chosen to self publish through a company that seems to have the price and program that is right for us. But, first the writing continues, and pennies in the penny jar!
Be around to visit! Much love and prayers!
I love that last picture! Your post is so full of so many different emotions...I was swirling along with you as I read! You go girl. I know you can do it. God will write that book. Oh and I think it is June bug...that is what we call them here in Ohio. I think. I sure wish I had the genius you have at your disposal regarding computers! Praise God! Hubby wants me to write a book...he is the reason I blog...obedience to my hubby...maybe God will inspire me as well as to the contents of a book...in the mean time I too trust that His good and perfect will is working itself out in my inability to think on what to write by daily writing out what He shows me day in and day out as a wife, mother, and homeschooler! Hugs to you! Thanks for remembering your cyber friends. You are in my prayers!
ReplyDeleteWow...a lot of stuff here.
ReplyDeleteFirst...glad you did not bust your computer. Mine is about three years old and I guard it with my life. :)
I think it is so cool that you and hubby are in total agreement on this. How often does that happen without discussion or God changing a heart?
I love that you are picking the dream back up. Kind of like Joseph. I will pray about this with you. I love the life of Deborah. And nothing would make my blood boil faster than when I heard men say that the only reason GOd used a woman was because a man would not do it. Grrr! Girl I could write a mini book just on this. And then because of these arguments by men women are willing to compare themselves to the donkey God used to speak His word.
I had better stop. ;)
So you go forth and write the words the Spirit puts in your heart. He is able to do above and BEYOND all we can think or imagine!
I want to be one of the very first to buy your book, hot off the presses! I hope the author will be kind enough to sign it for me. hee-hee. I love your writing. Your posts are thought provoking and refreshing. I've always felt such a kindred spirit with you. I am so, so, soooo glad that you came back to blogging. God Bless you on this journey. I know everyone will notice the spiritual aspect of this post, but I have to say I think it's terribly romantic that your hubby supports your dream so much, praying with you about it and giving you the computer. That honors God and blesses His heart as well.
ReplyDeleteGirl, you just lifted me up on wings that soar! What an amazing story. God is so good. I celebrate this pursuing a dream with you and will say a prayer for the process right now!
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"pursuing of the dream is as much the point, as the dream itself." AMEN to that statement! This is where I am with being back in school right now. I'm so loving being back on campus. I know there is a lot of hard work ahead. He is good indeed. I'm so excited to hear you are writing. I do love how you say things. I'm so glad you are back in blog land!!
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